wish u were here

Its been 5 yrs you have left all of us! I wish u were here beside me to share my happiness with me. since u were gone I hv not being with anyone as good as u as loving as you! I've been with all kind of guys since u gone, all of them can't b trusted! I know u are watching me from up there you know how much pain I've gone thru how hurt I am. Only you truly understand me n know me in and out. I've been so naive wit all d guys I do whatever they said even when they cheat behind my back I just smile and pretend I dont know anything. some of them do hit me too.

D last x bf I hv was 2007 he was d last one I let to lay hand on me I've gone thru so much wit him most of the time I was not happy I've done so much for him n nothing satisfied him until the day I can't stand he cheat behind my bck so many time one day I've decided to leave him!! Day by day month by month hv pass by my heart dint open to anyone for about a year!

On 2008 I got to know this not tat well my instincts said there's something about him tat I like. I got to know him for awhile then we got together at first things gone so well n I'm just being me nice to him. Till one find day when my world been covered by black sky he add it up wit his news that he can't b with me b coz he dont love me like I love him. Tats d time I feel like my world hv collapse. And at the same time I found out he love someone else when he was with me. Tell me Aaron what hv I've done wrong?? What hv I've done wrong to them till I've been punish like this all I ever ask is for love!! What hv I've done wrong to u till u leave me without saying good bye. Include u promise me so many thing at the end of the day d promise u make gone with u.

But now I'm still in a relationship with the same guy who said he dont love me coz he found out she do lots of bad stuf to him n used him. N also I got to know lots of stuf he did with her. Since tat day I've change to different person with out realize it. After been hurt n been Cheat so many time u will change your character to a different person without u realize it. We last till today there's up n down n also some stuf he did really up sad me but who am I to tell him.

Where are u when I need a shoulder to cry on, to share my joy. I remember u will always call me when u got the feeling I'm not happy only u understand me. I miss so much I'm sorry for not telling u bout my life story here like I promise. Coz it make me fall apart when I'm typing all I can c at d screen your face smiling at me everything is gonna b ok.

Anyway its late now I will write to u more bout my story life soon. I hope u r in a good n happy place now. I miss u

Lots of love from me
noreen