Wednesday, March 4, 2009


Since he’s been gone from my life
I feel lonely
You left me alone here
Without single truth

I don’t know what to do
I felt I have no friends
Other than you
Other than your love

Send me your angel
Let it be my life partner
And show me the path
That you have chosen for me
Send me your angel
‘cos I’m lonely here
And in this world I don’t want to be alone

Without knowing, tears are dropping
accompanying without end
the story in my heart

Wednesday, February 11, 2009


The day i've been waiting for has come.. :) yesterday sharp at 12 midnight i've recive mail from American Intercontinental University saying tat i've been accpeted to the uni YEAAAAAAAAAAAAA heheheh its the most happiest day of my life :) i got to b bck in my love of my life arms again...

hopefully i will b flying off to city of shopping LONDON early march..

well my love i know its been hard for both of us since i got bck here i would like to appologize to u bout everything i've done or said to u. its been a stressfull month for me i was too worried bout my application. i know how i tread u is really bad BUT u also did some bit here n there wrong but anyways im happy now i just cant wait to c u.

And to some people who try to convince my mom not to let me study oversea well sorry u r nothing to my mom n me... :P n stay out of my life n dont b such a double faces when u your self know u r not so gd person n daughter...

till now then my blog hopefully the next time i blog will b in london


Sunday, February 1, 2009

wish u were here

Its been 5 yrs you have left all of us! I wish u were here beside me to share my happiness with me. since u were gone I hv not being with anyone as good as u as loving as you! I've been with all kind of guys since u gone, all of them can't b trusted! I know u are watching me from up there you know how much pain I've gone thru how hurt I am. Only you truly understand me n know me in and out. I've been so naive wit all d guys I do whatever they said even when they cheat behind my back I just smile and pretend I dont know anything. some of them do hit me too.

D last x bf I hv was 2007 he was d last one I let to lay hand on me I've gone thru so much wit him most of the time I was not happy I've done so much for him n nothing satisfied him until the day I can't stand he cheat behind my bck so many time one day I've decided to leave him!! Day by day month by month hv pass by my heart dint open to anyone for about a year!

On 2008 I got to know this not tat well my instincts said there's something about him tat I like. I got to know him for awhile then we got together at first things gone so well n I'm just being me nice to him. Till one find day when my world been covered by black sky he add it up wit his news that he can't b with me b coz he dont love me like I love him. Tats d time I feel like my world hv collapse. And at the same time I found out he love someone else when he was with me. Tell me Aaron what hv I've done wrong?? What hv I've done wrong to them till I've been punish like this all I ever ask is for love!! What hv I've done wrong to u till u leave me without saying good bye. Include u promise me so many thing at the end of the day d promise u make gone with u.

But now I'm still in a relationship with the same guy who said he dont love me coz he found out she do lots of bad stuf to him n used him. N also I got to know lots of stuf he did with her. Since tat day I've change to different person with out realize it. After been hurt n been Cheat so many time u will change your character to a different person without u realize it. We last till today there's up n down n also some stuf he did really up sad me but who am I to tell him.

Where are u when I need a shoulder to cry on, to share my joy. I remember u will always call me when u got the feeling I'm not happy only u understand me. I miss so much I'm sorry for not telling u bout my life story here like I promise. Coz it make me fall apart when I'm typing all I can c at d screen your face smiling at me everything is gonna b ok.

Anyway its late now I will write to u more bout my story life soon. I hope u r in a good n happy place now. I miss u

Lots of love from me

Saturday, January 17, 2009

There's only so many songs that I can sing to pass the time.And I'm running out of things to do to get you off my mind.All I have is this picture in a frame,that I hold close to see your face everyday.With you is where I'd rather be,but we're stuck where we are.It's so hard, you're so far..This long distance is killing me.I wish that you are here with me.Now the minutes feel like hoursand the hours feel like days.. While I'm away .You know right now I can't be home, But I'm coming home soon. All I have is this picture in a frame that I hold close to see your face everyday.With you is where i'd rather be,but we're stuck where we are.It's so hard,you're so far.. This long distance is killing me.I wish that you are here with me,but we're stuck where we are.It's so hard, you're so far.. Can you hear me crying? With you is where i'd rather be

Dedicate to U.I.S

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

loving memory


Hobbie: RACE

When tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me, too.
But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try and understand,
That an Angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life I'd always thought
I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for
And so much yet to do,
It seems almost impossible
That I am leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared
And all the fun we had.
If i could relive yesterday,
I thought just for awhile,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you
And maybe see your smile.
But then I fully realized
That this could never be.
For emptiness and memories
Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things
That I'd miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through Heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne.
He said, "This is eternity
And all I've promised you,
Today your life on earth is past,
But here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day's the same day,
There's no longing for the past.
For you have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true,
Though there were some times you did some things
You knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven,
And now at last your free.
So won't you take my hand
And share my life with me?
"So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here in your heart.
Aaron I'm so sorry for all the things I've done I'm so sorry i dint get a chance to c you when you came back. i miss you so much every night and day you will always b in my mind no matter what our friend said that u r gone to me u will always b by my side when ever I'm alone. i wish things dint happened. now u know how many people miss you n love you. you dint keep to your promise! you said you wont leave me alone but where r you when i really need u? where r u when i need a shoulder to cry on? i really wish you could come back!!! your will always b the best bf i ever had n best friend i ever know!! :'(

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